minivan race car driver

ok, so I do dislike some ppl more than others. The top of that list would be minivan driver's who for whatever reason think they are driving a sports car. This morning driving to work, I get cut off by an old nissan quest. I then watch this guy swerve through 3 lanes of traffic trying to get better position. It was kinda funny and very stupid at the same time. I could just see him hitting a car and then all of us being caught in a massive swarm of twisted metal. Fun thoughts as all I want to do it make to the airport on Sunday alive.

empty

I'm still going through very low points of missing Krisi. I can be find and then boom, like a bomb I'm depressed. Just a few more days until we're together again though. I can't wait, taking a little trip out of town for a night. Just good time together away from the world. The apartment is still so cold and uninviting without her there. I miss her so much. Love lift us up where we belong.

Writing my great epic now,... or starting it. Character development is killing me though. Fresh idea's are hard to hold onto. So I only work on it every other day, I'm hoping this will keep the idea's coming.

I really do feel like I have changed my life though, writing, reading, just thinking things through. Everthing has helpped me see what I was and what I am now and shall ever be. Kinda like I was living through a fog, but it's all so clear now. But knowing that I will only pray harder for people and things in my life.

time goes so slowly when waiting

I just want June 25th to be here already. That's not asking too much is it?
13 more days and it's killing me. I can't wait for the airport pick up trip. I'm going to be so excited driving down there.

Working out has progressed right along. I've been under the 200lbs mark for right at a week now. Finally making some head way on it all. I've requested a ton of information from Schools. I need to get back in soon, too much wasted time just working when I could have been taking evening or classes online. I hate all the time I've wasted in just about every aspect of my life. Mostly, the time missed telling Krisi how I truely feel about her. She knows now, I just hope it's not too late. I love her so much it hurts.

I'm tired of thinking of titles

Waking up this morning I felt completely empty. Just run down completely and on top of that I now apparently have a cold in 85-90 degree weather. I look forward to this weekend though. I should be able to talk to Krisi a bit and Sunday I have an autox with the Z. Sometimes what you want to tell someone can't be put into words. Words just don't communicate the way I want them too sometimes. I wish we could communicate by someone taking a backseat in our soul. So they can know exactly what we are thinking, exactly what we are feeling. Communicating in that way would eliminate so many unanswered questions, so many unanswered emotions. Not so much unanswered emotions but emotions that you want someone else to feel with you.

lyrics

been listening to a lot of music lately.
This from an incubus song sticks in my head.

I never thought I could want someone so much
cause now you're not here
and I'm knee deep in love with you

Two weeks without my lover
I'm in this boat alone
floating down a river named emotion
will I make it back to shore?
or drift into the unknown