this is all we know

It's funny how people always say change is possible. How if you want to be different then you can change. I have in recent days come to the conclusion that is bullshit. Over the pass six or seven years of my life I have heard a few things mentioned over and over again. No matter how much I think I have changed or 'grown" as a person the same things happen. Why is this? Is this some sort of loop that all humans are caught up in. Is this the meaning of life? What I mean is that once we see the loop and is it for us to break this loop.... I do believe this is what some of our destiny is comprised of... not all of it but a part. Now I'm wondering how often this sort of thing happens. Does it happen to everyone or just us unlucky bastards? Well, apparently I'm full of questions. I guess that is a good thing. I'm not ready to settle for what may be before me, instead I choose to make myself. No one is going to do it for me. I'm certainly not going to win the lottery any time soon.

So now seeing the loop that is part of my life I have to find a way to break it and change what is set for me. Or maybe it is set for me to break this loop. Who knows and now I've gone deeper than any of us can find an answer for.... neat huh?