where you can't be
A horrible event. Breath stolen from me by the one I love. Where I am is not where I should be, it's not where I want to be. I'm so in love, yet I haven't given her what she needs. I haven't shown her how I feel. I just haven't expressed my love in the way she wants. She says that everything I've said to her has been said in the past by others. This may be true, but when I say those things I put every bit of myself into them. She is my heart, she is what I want. She is who I want to be with for the rest of my life. I see such amazing things in her. Her love, her strength, her passion... passion something I lack right now, something I have to find. Not just for the sake of my love but for me as well. I do feel as though someone has knocked the breath out of me though. Maybe it's a wake up. The one things I'm certain of is that she is the best part of my life and I need to let her know that every moment. I let her down last night, by not being there when she needed me. This is something that hurt her and all I want to do is make it better. How though, that's the question.
All I can do is change, become someone better. It's all in my power to change the things that she doesn't like about my life, the things I don't like about my life. I just hope that she don't think I've taken her for granted... this isn't even a possibility, she knows that my heart beats her name.
more in a bit, I have to clear my head..........
