house/home/roof over my head

looking at houses alone really sucks. Oh well, that just means it's all about what I want. I still say the buying process should be streamlined.

who the f knows

at certain points in my life I have to ask my self, why not me, why am I not good enough.

basicly I have more reasons to now hate my self and life.

awesomeness huh.

seriously

why does life have to be so difficult all the time. Something easy would be nice every once in a while. Of course then I think well nothing good is ever easy....right, anyone wanna back that statement up? and with that I'll just say, whatever. good night world.

This isn't about Loki, I'm not ready to write anything about him yet. Only that I miss my buddy everyday.

time

so maybe it's time. then, now, tomorrow, next year. No matter how bad you want someone, if the time isn't right then it will not work. No matter how hard you make everything around you seem like it's the right time. Maybe it's a path, and along the path you hit bumps that make your heart forget time. But time doesn't forget you, and time knows the path you are on. The path and time are joined showing us a sparkle of what we will one day reach. For some the path to love is short and sweet, it happens early in their lives and they know it for the rest of their life.... for those special few time has released them. For the heart and love are the only two possible forces in the universe that can over come the power of time. Of course that leaves the rest of us that haven't or thought we had at one point or another...but we remain on the path. Apparently time isn't through with us yet, or playing a joke on us.... it does seem like that sometimes. That's the thing with time, that tiny sparkle that we get to see once in a while...In some cases it's a prelude to what awaits you but at a different time on the path. We feel that our paths stretch to Saturn's rings...Hope for tomorrow keeps us traveling down the path and toward our star. As the emptiness in the hearts of those on the path becomes overwhelming, they need only look back at the path they have traveled. Looking back reminds us of the bumps that make time stop, even if for just a short time. Those bumps are enough to keep us moving toward the next one, the last one, the forever one.

I know I have messed up more than I have successed in this journey called life, but looking back on my path....I smile because I do see what is possible in love.

no clue

so if I get pissed at someone for trying to bring a drink from a bar into a car, and then yell at them because I think they are talking shit........wait for it........Then I get yelled for getting pissed.

life is awesome.

well umm yeah

ever feel like screaming would make a difference? I'm gonna try it later today and see if it makes me feel better.

I think I'm beginning to be a bit to negative about things that I shouldn't as they are things out of my control.

Sleep now little girl

Today my bestfriend had to put his Boxer Roxy to sleep after finding that she had cancer. I feel so bad for him. I cannot imagine that pain. Makes me want to run home and grab Loki and Lilly and never let go.

But on the upside Roxy is in heaven now and she gets to meet my baby girl Dutchess.

dug in

so I'm dug in as good as I can get, and I'm waiting for the storm that I know is over the horizon.

A fine line walked and failed

5/27/09

In this situation I cannot make any party completely happy with my actions. Not exactly sure what to do at this point though. More changes for the future that is for sure. It's funny how someone giving what they think is good advice, but instead it only adds to the weight you already feel. Epic fail! So many missteps along the way, only to fail everyone again.

The worst is that I have failed myself and I put myself in this.

I love writing about things that are important but leaving out all clues as to what it is...

the quest for a mountain bike.. a good one that is.

I've been researching mountain bikes online for a few hours now and just can't justify spending the same amount I would on a used car for a new mountain bike.
Used is a good option, guess I'll check out the LBS and see what they have in as far as used bikes I guess.

update

completely forgot about this site again. is there an iphone app for blogger? I need to look into that.