lonely ness part 2

I still can't shake the emptiness I feel with Krisi away. Talking to her just a few times a day isn't getting the need and want of her. I miss her so much, like a part of me has died. As though I am weak now and void, just holding her would make all that go away. I just want to scream I miss you and love you from the mountain top and have her hear me. Life is so much better when I can wake up and she her, roll over in the middle of the night and she's there.

yet again I turn to a Harry Connick Jr song.

Hes always smiling
He never looks mean
Even when the sun comes in between
The man in the moon is smiling
cause hes in love
The man in the moon is smiling
cause hes in love with the girl in the world

Shes there in the evening
She never comes late
All day she spins around
But never makes him wait
The girl in the world is smiling
cause shes in love
The girl in the world is smiling
cause shes in love with the man in the moon

When two heavenly bodies glow
All the stars agree
A planet might be born
Maybe even a galaxy

And in the morning
They dont say good-bye
But with a kiss
They blend into the sky
Oh, theyre smiling
cause theyre in love
The man in the moon is smiling
cause hes in love with the girl in the world

The man in the moon is smiling
cause hes in love with the girl in the world

Heavenly!


This will be the next song I sing to Krisi.

I am counting the days until we are togehter again. 31

Working out is still on schedule and lazyness around the apt has improved. Keeping busy helps a bit. But those down times like going to bed and waking up are the hardest. Random days a just break down. You see how my thoughts just go right back to missing her.

Read more of the bible last night, psalms... good stuff in there. David said I have faith in the Lord and with that nothing can stand in my way.... or something to that effect. Been doing a lot of praying too, that is something that just makes you feel better about everything most of the time. Maybe just laying how you feel out to the Lord is all that is needed in life. I'll call those God Updates. Keep him informed about what's going on with me. Maybe I'll get a what's up back some time.